Yes, I know I have neglected the blog lately, but I really needed time to figure out what was going on before I could post anything. Family life is so hard. Thanksgiving was really tough this year. I had a great time with my family, but at the same time my mind was consumed with the thought that this could very well be the last one I have with all of them. That is, needless to say the last thing I want. I love my wife more than anything in the world, and finally she has been able to admit that she is suppressing her feelings for me. At least now I know that they are still there in some form. For a while now I thought they were gone completely, and have only been staying here for my boys. Now I have some hope that the woman of my dreams may not leave my life after all. Yes, she is still conflicted, but with time and patience, hopefully things can be worked out. That is my prayer every night, and several times a day. There are a lot of people that think I am foolish for sticking around and hoping for another chance at the love we shared, and to those people all I can say is you apparently have never loved they way I do. I hope you feel the love I have for her with someone someday. It is truly magical and a blessing from God.