Well, things are definitely going better around my house. The wife and I have been able to have some good quality talks and are doing much better. We decided to start our relationship over as much as possible. We are dating again and I have to say it is better now than it was when we first got together. We are like teenagers again and are having a gret time. Yes, there are issues that need to be worked out and abstacles to overcome, but I am living proof that if you love and want something bad enough, and have the strength and patience to keep fighting for it, things will go your way. I am not saying we are out of the woods... we have a long way to go before we know that, but theyare looking pretty good.

Yes, I know I have neglected the blog lately, but I really needed time to figure out what was going on before I could post anything. Family life is so hard. Thanksgiving was really tough this year. I had a great time with my family, but at the same time my mind was consumed with the thought that this could very well be the last one I have with all of them. That is, needless to say the last thing I want. I love my wife more than anything in the world, and finally she has been able to admit that she is suppressing her feelings for me. At least now I know that they are still there in some form. For a while now I thought they were gone completely, and have only been staying here for my boys. Now I have some hope that the woman of my dreams may not leave my life after all. Yes, she is still conflicted, but with time and patience, hopefully things can be worked out. That is my prayer every night, and several times a day. There are a lot of people that think I am foolish for sticking around and hoping for another chance at the love we shared, and to those people all I can say is you apparently have never loved they way I do. I hope you feel the love I have for her with someone someday. It is truly magical and a blessing from God.

Well I guess I should tell you a little bit about my life. I am 31 years old, a husband to Michele, the most beautiful woman on the face of the earth and father to 3 wonderful boys, Anthony, Marcus and Austin. Things are in a transitional period for us all because we just moved back to Oregon, the most beautiful part of the country I have ever seen, and are trying to settle in. As I mentioned earlier, I am retired from Professional Wrestling, and never realized the impact the business had on my family. I became obsessed with it and lost my focus. I never intended to hurt my family, and feel terrible that I did. All I can do now is try to repair the damage I have done. So in case you hadn't guessed, my wife and I are having problems. No I will not go into details, but we are trying to work it out. I hope and pray I got my focus back in time. I never truly realized how blessed I was until I was faced with the possibility of losing it all. I love being a husband and father, far more than I loved wrestling, and only hope that my family can see that. I work hard every day to show them how much I love them, and to make up for my mistakes. My advice to all husbands, fathers and well, every man out there is to remember to show the people you love just how much they mean to you, and never take them for granted. Believe me, I have seen the damage it does and the pain it causes. It is more painful than you ever want to know. Not only to the ones you hurt, but to you as well. You do not want to find yourself in my position, fighting to keep what you love. My only interpretation would be hell on earth. It is the only saying that fits. Please heed my advice. It will not make you less of a man to show your emotions. I fully admit to crying often, especially lately and I do not feel like less of a man. Hold your children, spend time with them, listen to them. Tell your wife you love her and how beautiful she is several times a day. Tell them how important they are in your life, but more importantly, show them with everything you do. Believe me, if you don't, you will regret it.

New Blog

Well, this is a brand new blog for me, and I want to thank everyone who comes to check it out. I have had a couple in the past but due to bad internet availability or whatever, I abandoned them. Well this family man has a cable modem now so that won't be a problem. This won't be like my last ones either. I may touch on politics occasionally, maybe some world events like I did with Howling in the Wind. I will not be discussing wrestling like I did on Cheers, Boos, Sweat and Spandex. I am retired and regret ever stepping into the ring. It ruined my life and seriously damaged my body. End of story. No, this blog will be about my life. The ups and downs of marriage, fatherhood and everything that goes with these subjects. Be warned... I speak my mind. I am a firm believer in saying what I mean and if I offend you... deal with it. If you don't like something I say, don't read it! I was raised to be direct and while I may be done with wrestling, I was Mr. Attitude long before I laced up the boots, and I am not gonna stop just because some people are overly sensitive. That is their problem to deal with, not mine. I am a Christian, so I won't intentionally offend anyone with my writings, but I will not pull my punches either. Now that you have been forewarned, thank you for stopping by and keep checkin out my blog because the adventures of a father and husband are never over!